The weird world of pregnancy porn

BY TRACY CLARK-FLORY

Sadie Holmes is more than39 weeks pregnant and going into labor. She is sitting naked on the bed in the RV she calls home waiting for her next contraction to hit. While she waits, the 27-year-old brunette is filming a video for a fan. She wraps a measuring tape around her breasts, belly, and butt, while reading out measurements 37 inches, 38 inches, 40 inches. Mmm, look at that belly, and look at how swollen I am now, she says, touching her pubic bone.

Then, a few seconds later, a contraction hits. Ahhh, owww, she says intensely, flapping her hands and sucking in air. She ends the video holding her belly and flirtatiously telling the camera, Im off to the doctor in the next few hours.

In othercustom videos orderedbyfans, Holmes has doneeverything from stripping while gyrating her stomach to gorging on chips, burping uncontrollably, and complaining about being a fat pregnant cow. While pregnant, shes also starred in professionally produced adult films featuringthings like X-ratedOBGYN appointmentsandfaux incest including one movie titled, Daddy Made Me A Mommy Too. Holmes, who has already performed during two pregnancies and plans to keep going,has found a footholdin thesurprisingly popular genre of pregnancy porn.

Its not the pregnancy porn that you see in grocery checkout lines, where tabloids endlessly speculate about Hollywood baby bumps and glossy magazines feature a rotating cast of pregnant celebrities doing the Demi and posing nude but, really, it reflects all of the same conflicted cultural attitudes around pregnancy that are seen in the mainstream.Only it does so in the extreme, eyeball-grabbing terms of hardcore porn. It is all of our anxieties, hangups, and horror, as well as awe, intrigue, and reverence, around maternity writ large. Pregnancy porn is a magnifying glass, a revealing Rorschach test, for how we think of pregnancy itself and, sometimes, a direct and compelling challenge to it.

Pregnancy porn is, without a doubt, a niche genre. Its rare to findit as a featured category ontube sites or on offerfrom mainstream producers. Occasionally, its createdby progressive female directors andqueer porn producers but its most often soldby fringe companies specializing in taboos, like incest, which tells you something about its standing in the adult industry.Still, pregnancy porn has a seriousfollowing. On Pornhub, its the107th most popularsearch term in the U.S., alongside redheadand babysitter. It is much morepopular, though, in the world of amateur porn and camming. OntheX-rated cam and clipsite ManyVids, pregnant is, remarkably, the number two most searched term, surpassed only by anal. In fact, users on the pregnancy fetish message board Preggophiliakeep track of cam performers who are currently pregnant.

Last summer, 31-year-old Scarlett Lacy had been workingas a cam performer when she found out that she was unexpectedlypregnant.I was like, Oh my god, theres no way Im going to be able to pay my bills, she said.But then she started digging around the two sites she used, Clips4Sale and ManyVids, and found that pregnant performers were thriving. It actually gave me hope, she said. So, she started producing pregnancy clipsthat ran the gamut from what she calls goddess fetish, where its all about her being a beautiful fertile woman with an eroticized big round belly, to pretending to blackmail the viewer after tricking him into getting her pregnant to mocking a fanfor not being able to get her pregnant.It was insane and awesome they did really well, she said.

It seems fansdont want any one thing from pregnancy porn. Holmes says manyare titillated by the physical expansion that comes with pregnancy andenjoy tracking these details withOBGYN-like precision one of Holmes fans paid for a series of updates throughout her pregnancy in which she would measure her expanding body parts and weigh herself. Someenjoy watching her pretend to be physically out of control while pregnant say, gorging on junk food or groaning about the sizeof her belly.Another popular sub-genre is pregnancy cuckolding, where a man is belittledfor failing to impregnate a pregnant woman. Sometimes there are shades of financial domination, where a pregnant woman orders a man that he must pay her child support, even though he didnt father her child.

Queer and female-directed porn in this genre is less likely totreatpregnancyastaboo. Instead of titles like, Pregnant & Pounded,you get ones like, Pregnant With Desire. Storylines rarelyfocus on the pregnancy, which might not even be mentioned at all. Iwanted it to be nestled within the movie, that this would bea storyline that was happening within the movie but that wewerent going to advertise on the cover, said porn director Nica Noelle of her pregnancy shoots. We werent going to make it a novelty thing. In these kinds of films, pregnant bodies are eroticized, but its less about oiling up a womans belly than it is appreciating the full picture. Madison Young, a porn performer and director, and author of The Ultimate Guide to Sex Through Pregnancy and Motherhood: Passionate Practical Advice for Moms, starred inseveral films during her two pregnancies mainly solo, queer, and lesbian scenes and sawit as away to honor the complexity of our identity as human beings and to further honor the natural presence of sexual desire and sexual identity in all stages of our life.

Sade Lune, who describes herself on Twitter as atraveling bohemian courtesan, queerdo & parent, is something of a pregnancy performance artist. She undertooka multi-partmultimedia project titled, Biological Clock,about her desire to get pregnant itincludeda short art porn filmtitled, Egg, featuringsex scenes interspersed with her inserting chicken and duck eggs into her vagina and then popping them out. The projectculminated with what The Rumpus called a queer insemination ritual/gangbang. But Lune has also performed in whatcan be described more straightforwardly as porn and, once pregnant, she was excited to create films that showedsexualized pregnancy that was not within the norm. That meant performing as the dominant, and sometimes even sadistic, partner in several scenes including one where she smacked her co-star around with her belly.

This might seem incoherent thatthe genre presents pregnancy as tabooand grotesquebut also naturaland beautiful. That is partly becausethe adult industry is more diverse than peopletypically think, but also because porn tends to reflect back the culture that welive in and, well, we are very conflictedabout pregnancy.

Kelly Oliver, a philosophyprofessor at Vanderbilt Universityand author of, Knock Me Up, Knock Me Down: Images of Pregnancy in Hollywood Films, says attitudes around the pregnant body have done a complete 180, at least on the surface.In the 40s and 50s, it was something to be hidden. Women were supposed tocover themselves up, stay at home, and wereashamedof beingpregnant I guess because it signaled that theyd had sex, she says. In 1952, an episode of I Love Lucy dealt with the stars pregnancywithout once uttering the word pregnant, which was deemed too indecentto air.

By1991 Demi Moore was posingfully nude on the cover of Vanity Fair while sevenmonths pregnant but the image was seen as so controversial itwas sold wrapped in paper with only her eyes showing. Several decades laterit feelsderigueurfor pregnant celebrities to pose nude, whether its Jessica Simpsonon the cover of Elle or Kim Kardashian in a naked selfie.

But its not so simple as to say that the pregnant body has been embraced. Tabloidscelebrate Beyonces fertility goddess photo shoot or Serena Williams first-trimester Australian Open win at the same time that they critically obsess about celebrities excessive pregnancy weight gain or struggles to get back their pre-baby bodies.Mainstream filmand television occasionally offer up soft-focuspregnant sex scenes, but maternityis often shown as comical and awkward, particularly when it comes to sex. In a lot of these films the pregnant body is the butt of the joke, but its also highly eroticized, so you see a lot of it, says Oliver. Its seen as sexy and attractive, but also kind of abject and yucky.Then there are horror films, where women are pregnant with terrifying alien spawn a not so subtle representation of reproductive angst, says Oliver.

The pregnant body itself operates as a screen for those conflicted desires in our culture desires around women, reproduction, motherhood, Oliversaid of mainstream film. Its the same with porn, which delights in the pregnant bodyat the same time that iteroticizesour anxieties aroundit whether its concerns about paternity, infertility, orfemale power. It shows pregnant women as both fertility goddesses and fat pregnant cows and, every once in a while, just people.

This story originally appeared on Vocativand has been republished with permission.

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